“Well today I described my pain to a doctor as someone had put thick elastic bands around my belly and was pinging them and pulling them tight, I can feel my ovaries swelling and burning and pulsating,
tight painful pressure in lower abdomen with a twisting pain in my sides whilst feeling light headed
with severe nausea. It hurts to move my legs and stand never mind walk. Sorry... Having a bad day was
told active Endo free in June (2nd lap) now I'm scared it has come back. That's how I would describe
my pain today. It varies though. “If they have gone through labor, I would say like that during my period.”
“I usually just tell them what's happening to my body that my organs are scarring together. But I go into super details. It's too difficult to explain the pain”
“I feel like I'd imagine getting stabbed in the stomach feels. It's a burning throb. It also feels like everything is all fused together in my stomach so if I Stand too quickly, it pulls and yanks my organs and it’s so painful I have to sit back down or pass out.”
“During my menses my entire body feels like it is trying to contort or change shape like something out of a horror movie. I can barely walk due to the pain in my lower limbs. My abdomen is on fire and
alternates being punched repeatedly and trying to have my insides scooped out. My spine feels like it is
being ripped out and my neck and shoulders are locked up. Plus I have a constant headache.”
“It feels like labor each month but we don't get a cute baby at the end. Like my uterus is having an
uncontrollable seizure. My stomach bloats so bad it looks like I'm pregnant. Its hard and there’s no
sucking it in. Oh and if you to sit at a desk all day there is no relief. And I get this tearing, pulling never-
ending pain on my left side.”
“Like I am being stabbed in the ovary and then my leg hurts from hip to knee. Extremely achy
Exhausting, debilitating, boring, lonely, frustrating, excruciating....etc. etc.”
“Like my ovaries are being ripped out of my body.”
“I was never able to explain how terrible my pain from the endo gets until I went thru labor and child birth with no epidural. That's how I explain it now; it feels like labor contractions, just utterly painful.”
“I described mine recently as feeling like I had caught my nail on something ... But inside. Come to find out it was because my left ovary was dragged down and glued to my pelvic wall. I've also experienced
stabbing, swelling, severe cramping, nausea, migraines, leg pain, sciatic pain... And my endo is mild.
Good times.”
“I really don't know where to begin...its worse than ripping the tendon in my ankle and worse than a
migraine. Any touch or movement in the slightest and I will yell at you because all my focus is on
breathing and not moving. It is like someone is ripping my insides out. It doesn't let up...you either
pass out or hurt--pain medicine doesn't even take the edge off. And I am overcome with fatigue. It
hurts too much to scream or cry and I really don't think it can be described. When asked on a scale
from 1-10 what my pain is I typically say 7-8, but when I was unconscious from surgery I said 14. I think
that pretty much speaks for itself.”
“Someone gutting me, taking my spine with both their hands and twisting it, or a jack hammer on my
abdomen. That's how I described it on my worst days. Not so bad, it’s a gnawing pain in my back, and
then just really painful cramps.”
“I say it was so bad I had trouble moving. And when they put me on high dose morphine in the ER, I
could still feel it.”
“To my girlfriends and female family members, I explained as if aliens were attacking me from the
inside and probing every inch of my insides, to my husband and other male family members and guy
friends, I asked them if it hurts being kicked in the groin, they said yes, then I said imagine that feeling
times one million. I think they understand now. Well some of them anyways.
“For me, not enough words to describe the pain. Usually, I have 2 painful days (period). Can't say bed
rest but maybe bed tired/suffering. My abdomen is like having fever, w/ big rocks so it's heavy and rolling even. Not knowing how to position my body. Pain all over, back, front, down and sometimes my feet gets cold and half body numbed. I just wanted everything to end when I am in pain.”
“My lower back feels like I've injured my spine in an accident and it’s in the process of healing. As for the front; I think women without endo couldn't tell you the exact position of their ovaries inside them,
for us, I could point my finger on them. It's as if someone has got a clamp over both sides of me and is
twisting until there is no more times it can turn and then dragging them towards each other. It's
nauseating, debilitating, sometimes I scream out in pain when I get the quick stabbing, and no amount
of pain killer will fix it.”
“When I went into (induced) labor with my 1st, the nurses kept telling me I was having contractions- I
didn't know what they were talking about. As the contractions grew stronger & I realized what they
were referring to (based on the monitor), I was like are you kidding me? That's a contraction?! That's
nothing compared to endo pain. Full natural childbirth, & delivering an almost 10lb baby that got stuck
(shoulder dystocia) had NOTHING on endo pain. And also, like a butcher knife being turned & twisted
in my abdomen.”
“Agonizing. Also physically, emotionally, and mentally exhausting. For me my back pain is just ...
unbearable at times. At one point it was so bad I thought I had a serious back or spinal injury.”
“I used to hate it when people thought I was a wimp, exaggerating or trying to get out of something
when I was in pain. Getting told I am a woman and it is supposed to hurt and to buck up was never
fun. I got to the point I thought maybe I was just a wimp...and doubted that it was not in my head....”
“I would tell them the truth. It is like someone stabbing and attacking your lower stomach.”
“Someone is stabbing me over and over again. Freddy Kruger”
“I’ve always said, a knife shoved up whichever end is having the pain and twisting and gouging the knife inside. It’s a hard pain for people to understand
:(“
“A combo of someone using a meat cleaver to back their way out from inside, and a fire spreading throughout my torso, and needle pricks on my ovaries.”
“I feel like my insides are being torn out through my girl parts.....or if I'm telling a man, I say it's like the worst diarrhea cramps you have ever had.”
“Hot poker up the available holes, being repeatedly beaten across back and stomach, so tired you could sleep for a year and being to look 6 months pregnant in the space of 5 minutes, and the feeling that something is going to burst.”
“I compare it to childbirth. Which usually works because a majority of people know what that's like even if they never had kids!”
“Like Call of Duty behind my belly button. Grenades. Everywhere.”
“Someone stabbing me in my ovary then taking what is left of it and wringing it out like an old dishcloth...all day”
“Feels like i am being torn apart inside out and when my period comes oh hell let the war begin.”
“Like someone poured super glue onto my internal organs. Standing up or stretching feels like everything being pulled apart in different directions. The pain is often sudden, without warning,
rendering me unable to move until it passes. Sitting down feels like sitting on a thousand bruises. Sexual pain feels like deep, sharp spasms that come in waves and don't stop for minutes or
hours. Sexual pain the day after feels like my entire pelvic region has been through a meat grinder. Adhesion pain attacks are so sharp, stabby, jarring and severe they make me want to fucking die.”
“I get aching pain only, dull groin, back of legs aching, which thankfully comes and goes throughout the year. I get a crampy sickening pain at ovulation which is made worse by going to the loo. It lasts about
20 minutes, then goes, only to return for the next few days, (same amount of time). Thank god I don't
get the knives in the pelvic region/tummy pain. That sounds like something straight from hell. I
empathize with you all, poor souls.”
“A knife been twisted in and around then an elastic band being stretched then twanged back ....are
yeah also a fire inside you.”
“Like someone is scraping all my internal organs with really rough sandpaper, and at the same time,
there is a 400 lb. boulder in my uterus trying to escape through my "openings".”
“Take a towel, say these are your insides, then twist and squeeze and stretch the towel, then take a
fork and stab the towel, then ask, any questions? Works every time.”
“Like a million daggers inside of me and every time u moves in the slightest way u get stabbed
repeatedly... And some one squeezing all my insides together... or hot prongs being shoved up your
who ha twisting and turning.. it sucks”
“Like my insides have barb wire wrapped them and they are on fire.”
“Like a steam roller and wheat cutter have been inserted in my body and operates all the time. Then a steam roller drives over my body ...”
“For men: super glue your testicles to your groin... now go run a marathon. Usually gets them!! “
“I've always said it attacks me. Tons of knifes stabbing & ripping. It feels like its falling out. I always want to tear it out of my body. Can't have intercourse with my husband because it’s an added pain to
the already daily chronic pain. There have been a lot of times when I've wanted to just get everything
taken out, but I'm only 27 & have always dreamed of having a household of babies. Adopted and my
own birth children. This is something we have to grow to accept. Hardest thing. :*( I've started
thinking I can't live this way forever. It’s only a matter of time until the endo takes away all my dreams.
I have suffered for 15 years. It holds me back. I wanted to join the military, but I felt like my body
would make me fail.. it was before I knew what was wrong”
“I thought I was dying. I cannot run anymore because it hurts terribly, like its bouncing around and
pulling everything apart. I read all our posts and yes, that's how it feels but it’s almost like there are No
words that can give a true explanation. “
“Words can’t explain the true suffering we feel. Bottom line.”
“My doctor once said imaging a million spider webs inside of you and every time u move some of those strands rip and break causing pain...”
“Twisting, stabbing knife on fire. May I say (I hope it's not morbid) I'm glad this? Was asked, I'm glad to know I'm not alone in even how I describe my pain. (Typing this now because I left work early because of pain, and am now waiting for dope to kick in :/ )”
“I saw it's like my abdomen is being stretched apart and a sharp blade is stabbing along it.”
“We'll I describe it to a woman is giving birth but much worse. And my bf has described it to his guy coworkers that it's like having there man hood twisted and then pulled I had to laugh at that one.”
“Feels like someone is stabbing u over and over and twisting the knife with each stab..” “Ripping, searing, pulling, and burning. I always say it feels like I have scalding hot rocks or bricks filling
up my belly. Or like I am trying to digest razors.”
“It feels like a barb wire fence is inside of me.”
“Excruciating”
“Burning pain too”
“Like constant pin pricks from the inside, having bowling balls sitting on my hips”
“Like a burning hot butchers knife stabbing and twisting over and over.”
“The worst period pain you have ever had x 100.”
“Like I am slowly breaking in half.”
“I do think it's significant to point out that the popular adjectives seem to be "hot" and "stabbing" and "heavy."
But also that doubling over is a common reaction. I would be shocked if most women here don't double over from it, I certainly do.”
“I used to tell them it was like the part in Alien when the baby alien pushed and ate its way through the stomach...”
“Like an exorcism inside my ovaries... Where good and evil are playing tug of war with barbed wire... And it’s already in a bib ball... The barbed wire... And they go back n forth over and over!!!”
“Doubled over is not the word for it. Completely incapable to get off the couch or bed. Usually end up stuck there glued to my heating pad for at least 3 or four days before it starts becoming more manageable...”
“Agony”
“Devastating”
“I used to hate it when people thought I was a wimp, exaggerating or trying to get out of something when I was in pain. Getting told I am a woman and it is supposed to hurt and to buck up was never fun. I got to the point I thought maybe I was just a wimp...and doubted that it was not in my head...”
“Like someone shredded my insides and is pouring lemon juice over the open wounds and taking sand paper over them at the same time on top of cramps.”
“I say it feels like I am full of razor blades. I can’t stand it when people respond with, have you ever ACTUALLY been full of razor blades to make that comparison -_- ugh.”
“Mine feel just like contractions.”
“I told my husband it's like the pain you were in with kidney stones. Doubled over in pain crying for pain pills. Also like razor blades steading you from hip to hip and being stabbed in the ovaries. I don't wish this on anyone but wish he experienced it just once.”
“I usually don't tell people. Erica, the only way I can describe having sex is it feels like I'm being shredded by razor blades. “
“Mostly it feels like contractions, withering weakening agony, to cough is like having a knife being plunged upwards from my C-sections scars. I'm no wimp. I deal with it.”
Imagine having the aches and pains of having the flu. That is my everyday all day constant pain. Now when I have a flare up I cannot catch a full breath, it hurts each time I move, twist or bend at the waist.
My husband says I thrash around in bed moaning in pain. That is when I can sleep. As a woman with
Endo I suffer from insomnia, my body is beat up and tired and yet I can’t sleep. My brain is searching. for answers, as my body attacks itself. As I type 4 weeks post op from my 11th endo related surgery I
am heartbroken that the pain is back. Typically for at least 2-6 months post-op the day to day pain is
manageable.
If you have made it through all of these encounters of my Endo Sisters describing their pain I commend you. I
am begging you to help us create awareness of this awful disease. Email me to find out how you can help.
Endomarch.wisconsin@gmail.com
Kathryn Tocco
November 4, 2013
